Hello everybody, I'm new to livejournal so i guess i'll introduce myself...
My names Katie and i decided to make a livejournal account to write down what I'm feeling. I dont think anybody i know understands me and the way I live my life, so i will write down my thoughts and feelings here. Maybe I will meet people here who are like me, who knows. But i just need somewhere to go to vent and i think this will be a good place to do that. :)
So basically, to make a long story short, i hate my body. There is nothing about it I can say I like, which is really sad, but its the truth. I just want to look like everyone else.. pretty. Nobody would understand why I am not happy.. most people would think my life is great. I have almost everythign i could ask for.. i have friends, family, i get good grades, i'm on varsity for both soccer and lacrosse.. But instead of enjoying all of these good things in my life, i'm too obsessed with weight. I am fat and ugly, and nobody wants to look at me. Food controls my life. Everyday is a struggle, I'm always thinking about food and how i can get away from it. I can't enjoy life the way I used to. Instead of going out and having a good time with my friends, I'm too concerned about how much fatter I am then everybody else. I truly want to be normal like everybody else.. and the only way that can happen is for me to be thin. If i were thin my life would be so much better, I wouldn't have to think about food 24/7.. and maybe people would want to be around me.